இயேசுவை உணரமுடியாத மதர் தெரஸா

மதர் தெரஸாவின் கடிதங்களை தொகுத்து தற்போது புத்தகமாக வெளிவந்துள்ளது.
அதில் 1949இலிருந்து எழுதப்பட்ட கடிதங்களில், இயேசு என்று ஒன்றையும் தன்னால் உணரமுடியவில்லை, வெறுமைதான் அங்கிருக்கிறது. மனதில் வெறுமையே குடிகொண்டிருக்கிறது என்று திரும்பத்திரும்ப எழுதியிருக்கிறார்.

இயேசு தெரஸாவின் மீது அன்பு செலுத்துகிறார் என்று யார் எழுதினாலும் தன்னால் அதனை உணரவும் முடியவில்லை. வெறுமையே இருக்கிறது. இது பொய் என்றும் எழுதியிருக்கிறார்.

கடுமையான பிரார்த்தனைகள் பின்னாலும் இயேசுவை பற்றி ஒன்றுமே உணரமுடியவில்லை என்று எழுதியிருப்பது, கிறிஸ்துவத்தை நிராகரிக்கிற மேற்கத்திய நாஸ்திகவாதிகள் "அப்பவே சொன்னேனே கேட்டியா" என்று கேட்க வைத்திருக்கிறது.

இயேசுவை விற்க மதர் தெரஸா லேபிள் உதவும் என்பதால், வாடிகன் தொடர்ந்து மதர் தெரஸாவை ஸெயிண்ட் ஆக்கும் வேலைகளில் மும்முரமாக இருப்பதாக செய்தி தெரிவிக்கிறது.

Mother Teresa's '40-year faith crisis'
By Malcolm Moore, Rome Correspondent
Last Updated: 12:19pm BST 24/08/2007

Mother Teresa of Calcutta, who may be canonised as a saint by the Vatican later this year, had a deep crisis of faith in God for the last 40 years of her life, according to a new set of her letters.

The correspondence, which spans most of Mother Teresa's life, shows that she felt alone and in a state of spiritual pain from around 1949, roughly the time when she started taking care of the poor and dying in Calcutta.

Mother Teresa, who is likely to be canonised, admitted that she had begun to doubt God
Although she publicly proclaimed that her heart belonged "entirely to the Heart of Jesus", she wrote to the Rev Michael Van Der Peet, a spiritual confidant, in September 1979 that "Jesus has a very special love for you. As for me, the silence and emptiness is so great that I look and do not see, listen and do not hear. The tongue moves [in prayer] but does not speak."

The letter was written just a few weeks before she received the Nobel Peace Prize for her charitable work.

More than 40 other letters, many of which she had asked to be destroyed in her will, show her fighting off feelings of "darkness" and "torture".

The letters are published for the first time in a new book, Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light, and are edited by the Rev Brian Kolodiejchuk, a close friend.

advertisementHe wrote that during that period, Mother Teresa did not feel God "in her heart or in the eucharist".

Mr Kolodiejchuk gathered the letters as part of the process to make Mother Teresa a saint, and is responsible for arguing in her favour. He said the letters would show people another side of her life, and said that the fact that she was able to continue her work during such torment was a sign of her spiritual heroism. Mother Teresa has been beatified, and is awaiting canonisation.

The Vatican has insisted that the revelations will not obstruct her path to sainthood.

“Lord, my God, you have thrown [me] away as unwanted - unloved,” she wrote in one missive. “I call, I cling, I want, and there is no one to answer, no, no one. Alone. Where is my faith? even deep down right in there is nothing. I have no faith. I dare not utter the words and thoughts that crowd in my heart.”

She added: “I am told God loves me, and yet the reality of the darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. Did I make a mistake in surrendering blindly to the Call of the Sacred Heart?”

She even compared her problems to hell and admitted that she had begun to doubt the existence of heaven and God.

"The smile," she wrote, "is a mask or a cloak that covers everything. I spoke as if my very heart was in love with God, a tender personal love. If you were there you would have said, 'What hypocrisy'."